Peculiar.

i don't feel you like i used to.
i can't feel you when i embraced you.
forget yesterday but many other times before.
this feeling just saddens me much lately.
im mad at self for feeling this.
makes me wonder why.
why the sudden change?
am i not whom you've loved all these while?
am i not whom you've missed all these while?
am i not whom you need all these while?
maybe not.
if not, just tell me so.
if so, stop telling things that you don't mean.
what i see written is way different from how i physically, emotionally see.
and if you're using aida as an excuse, i suggest don't.
it just hurts that bad.
that part, we should all understand by now.
you're oblivious to how much ive longed for you.
to be close...
and no, its not what you think it is.
im searching for warmth.
your warmth.
something which you will never know.
i felt it before but why can't i feel it now...
don't you see it?
its just...sad.
these thoughts just gets me all teary-eyed.
sometimes i found myself running out of reasons to cry.
this might sound pathethic.
but its the reason i go speechless everytime you'd ask why i'd cry.
there's no such things as crying over nothing.
maybe to you, but not me.
i've asked, you don't mind leaving me now?
you wouldn't budge.
maybe you wouldn't mind at all.
curious what's in your mind right now.
mind boggling isn't it?
try this times a billion.
well, if i think its what you think it is,
let me make it easy for you.
don't lead me on.
i now what i want but if your not willing to go through this with me,
don't fake what you don't feel.
its just unfair...
not only to me,
but the both of us. ='(